hiatus
2005 Colorado River Trip It’s officially starting today. I am packing the RV to head to the Colorado River. I have learned if I wait until I am on holiday, to enjoy holiday, I will miss half of the...
View Article… in the Beginning
The Beginning You were already there when I walked in the room. Everyone loved you and wanted to be with you. I was intrigued, but a little scared. Someone suggested I would feel better if I got to...
View ArticleThe luxury of knowing “why”
Today, truthfully the last couple days, I have been blue. I reject this emotion on so many levels. I consider it less-than. I want it tossed like trash, something to be eliminated—removed from my...
View ArticleWhen will the madness end?
While I try and keep the blog upbeat (solutions, hope) there are days I feel blind-sided by people I love and humanity in general. What are we thinking? Why are we doing this? Where is the compassion?...
View ArticleSobriety is not a life of mediocrity
The way we approach our sobriety is the way we approach life. We hate this parallel. We liked to think we were proficient in most areas and that our drinking was the only problem we possessed. We were...
View ArticleThe Hot Topic of Disease
Image Courtesy of Maggie Smith at FreeDigitalPhotos.net Seems there is a great deal of conversation regarding de-stigmatizing “addiction.” Addicts don’t want to be shun any longer. We want the...
View ArticleToday ranked at a “3”
It’s easier to think about new tasks than do new tasks. The scenario for me goes something like this: 6:00 am — Peace-filled, committed, serene, accepting, spiritually grounded. 9:00 am — Engaged in...
View ArticleEverything turns out good in the end. And if it’s not good, it’s not the end.
I have plenty of days when I am not up for “the journey.” I want the reward—now. It’s really that simple. I banter with self, dramatically exalting that, I’m too… exhausted from feeling my feelings...
View ArticleIt’s not happening to me, it’s just happening
We own everything that happens around us as if the universe was out to mock, assault or, at the very least, inconvenience us. This is inaccurate; flat out untrue. The universe in its intelligence wants...
View ArticleAll that is left—is to choose anything but that
At the end, my only solution had been to drink. I had long since relinquished my ability to choose. No longer a luxury—alcohol was now a necessity. I worshipped and welcomed its presence in my body. A...
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